Ps. I have a lot to say today.

Why does everybody HAVE to insist that i'm really still the grade. 8, Jenn, (yes, people make themselves want to believe I havent changed since then) despite the fact that I clearly grew up. Why does everybody love the old jenn, but not the new one? Two of the people who love the most (and also have known since grade 8) keep telling me, "oh, let the old you come out again, your blinded by the new you".. WTF, do people never change? When I was in grade 8, perhaps you weren't such a bastard. SUCK ON THAT. It just upsets me knowing they couldn't love me anyways. At least I got to see the one person who knows the me- now- last night, and I must say, that was definitely relaxing and comforting. The weird thing about this- is that people have been saying this to me for years. Did you love me in grade 8 when I extended myself to pretend I gave a shit? Did you love me when I was at home, drinking, hating myself? See the picture above? Thats me at school, drunk. All the pictures you love about me- you don't know the story behind. You don't know what I had to deal with when I was dating my boyfriend, and you don't know how I lost so much weight because I was scared- for several reasons. You didn't and you dont know everything about me, and you never will, because your all wound up in the past. Did you know that everything I said to you, was just a call of help? Not so much of a joke, but more of a cry. Do you still love the old me? I definitely don't.

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