Happy new years! Styx is coming on!
Love always remains!
12/31/09
I'm thrilled I'm going to buffalo on sunday. I hope gilly hicks, abercrombies lingerie store opened! They have those sheer mesh bra's. They're more expensive, but what the hell, ill only be there like once.
My dad & I are loving the weather- we barely need jackets. There's tons of people, and the concerts gunna start soon.
Dans le Casino!
I'm still full from that frikkin steak.
And I wish I could be sleeping in one of those hotel rooms right now.. Or other things in the room, you get it.
I plowed that steak. I didn't finish it though ;( I ate more then my dad though! My tummys sticking out LOL
I wish everybody an extremely happy new year. ! i'll be in niagara wandering around with my dad (annual tradition!) and i'll then be at the concert at the bottom of the hill.
Party it up & Be safe!
12/30/09
American Apparel!
I found it! it's only 14 bucks too. :D
finally, something I want thats affordable too!
Dayum!
Check out Dita's new boo. His name is Louis Marie de Castelbajac.
If you didn't know, I want to PLOW dita. She's absolutely stunning.
Definitely a fashion inspiration.
but manson is still hotter.
Home sweet home!
im home now, & watching family guy. i'll be chillin. GOT MILK? UHUH UHUH
im also going to niagara around 12 tomorrow.
& we'll be going to the keg, i'll get my baseball cut steak, & salad
YUM
My tradition of an annual reflection: Goodbye, 2009
The truth is, is that this year, everything has blown up. Everything has completely fallen to peices, in the best of ways. My original life plans, my 'friends' have disappeared, my school and academic life, my ideas and original beliefs on love and life, all shredded, and set on fire- POOF, GONE! there would be no point to follow last years tradition of setting up my reflection in an orderly way. I'm tired of orderly ways, and plans and formats. FUCK YOU APA, MLA FORMAT! Anyways, this year has been a very exhausting year. I've pushed myself to the limits- physically, emotionally, 'spiritually' and academically. Earlier this year, Chemistry class crushed all my dreams of going into med school, (yes, It was a dream of mine, and I still love the thought of it, despite my hatred of school, yes, talk about irony.) I have learned that school isn't for me- university- isn't for me only because it doesn't lead me in a path i'd want to take. I want to graduate school in 2010, to keep my doors open, and then thats it, unless I somehow burn for something more, which needs schooling- which is likely, and im okay with that. This year, I also lost a LOT of friends after the summer. During the summer, I had two groups of friends, massive groups, to hang out with. There was never a dull moment. I really loved them too, they're great people, but it came to show that only a friend or two really genuinely care, and who will always be there, unconditionally. Which, in reality is all I need. It came a time this year, despite having tons of all my friends, I turned to the bible, I KNOW, the BIBLE, for guidance- a relaxing quote or two giving me a feeling of hope, that one day I will finally be happy, and that all this suffering will be worth it. this year, has been insanely monotonous and it is the last thing I expect to see for 2010- at least after july. In july, ill finally be moving out and on my own- indirectly. I'll find myself a job that pays the bills while I find myself, what I want to do and whatnot. I can't imagine it- simply because it's always been a dream. In 2010, several dreams will come true, as corny as it sounds. I'll also slowly lose support from my family due to my choice of not going to school- which is alright. My definition of family always has, and always be of people who love you unconditionally, who will always be there for you, and guide you through life, and not force you through it. I'd hate to lose contact with my Dad- due to his anger towards me, but it's something I'd have to prepare for. It's reality. I think he'll come around though, knowing i'm doing this for the right reasons- which is a relief. Next year, my friends will be sleeping on cots in my place, (Alex, I got one with your name on it, I promise.) and i'll finally be able to breathe. All of this, my life, has been completely changed because of you. And, out of everything that has happened in my lifetime, meeting you has been the most monumental, beautiful and hillarious thing. I'm never bored around you, ever, and I can trust you with my life, which in itself, is beyond amazing. Your the reason why this year ended up being okay, your the reason why 2010 will be fucking kickass, and your the reason why I absolutely love the nighttime- (our phonecalls, of course). Without you, I wouldn't have found total amusement in seeing cops everywhere, hidden references to lolita in songs, I wouldn't have been able to love people singing 'dontttt fuckkkkwith meeeee' late at night, and I wouldn't be angry every time i'd see a picture of... she who must not be named. I can trust you with my life, I can trust you to make me laugh uncontrollably, and to say unexpectedly random things late at night. I WOULDNT BE ABLE TO BE HAPPY! you ease my soul, you calm me down, you make me smile even when im upset-- NOBODY knows how to calm me down or talk me back down to earth like you do. You should get a medal for it. Seriously. I'd like to mention that I wrote this while listening to a playlist I made that reminded me of you. It's so perfect. Everything I have done, everything, after July has been inspired by you. Your the soundtrack of my day, something that keeps me going, keeps me looking forward. Your apart of me now, in ways, that I'll probably never be able to describe. You get me moving, you get me singing, going 'laaaahdeeeedahhhhhhh!' everywhere, you get me going bezzerk at concerts. Just knowing, I have finally found you, is just so, beautiful. It can lead me to tears, thinking about what you have done to my soul, how you have released it in so many ways. Perhaps i can describe you as, running through my veins, in my heart, in my soul. You'll always be my sergeant chicken cutiepants, if i can always be your psycho killer with a gigglesnort. GAUHWUD, you make me corny. Yes, Indeed, this has been a very important year.
In 2010, it's all about us. In 2010, i'll be all yours.
exhaustion
I dont know what it was about today, but the run killed me. it was icier and fifty times more annoying. my legs are killing me again, woo!
ps. i smell sandalwood?
Running!
Going for my run! i'll be running to the muse, cause they rock like that. totally catchy.
SUPERMASSIVE BLACK HOLE, FTW
(i always think of the baseball game when i hear the song, so i thought posting this is appropriate.)
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