im exhausted. the jeep thing took so goddamn long, and we didnt finish. taking the roof off was easy, but were convinced theres something seriously wrong with the soft cover- the mechanics of it don't make sence, things almost broke when we were sliding them up (it should be effortless) we think its a manufacture issue, they definitely fucked something up. im so sleepy.
but anyways, im feeling good, mike really pissed me off today, he started jokingly calling me lazy and that i wasnt working (it gets to me because my mom says that- my eye was twitching, no fooling-- i was really mad) and then the lane fell on his foot and he got splashed, so that was karma, but then he got a water bottle and soaked my hair! is he NUTS?! i really wasn't in the mood for it. but anyways, he kept lecturing me, telling me that ill be old and miserable, that ill never have money, ect, he told me stories of people who he knew that had to move back in with their parents cause they got into a car accident-- crap like that, at the end of the shift i snapped at him, just snapped, and asked him what he was trying to accomplish. he tried to justify it with saying hes just trying to look out for me and let me see all the angles, and i told him that i have been-- and he interrupted saying, don't friends do that for you? and i yelled saying, friends trust your own judgement-- and dont lecture you. i felt bad for being angry the whole shift, but really, too bad. its the last sunday of doing this. and this is the last session of teaching. this is the last few months ill have to spend in woodbridge. what i love the most, is that as i was leaving, 'kiss you when its dangerous' came on the radio. i started smiling and laughing, because somehow, something about you always comes in to relieve my anger, my misery and frustration when i need it the most. you know what i want to say at right now.