someday you'll be fine, yes, i'll be just fine

So
sosososo
i already wrote a damn blog, and it vanished for some reason, so ill start again

okay

so i posted a couple more ads for finding a place in july (so far they're all basements in shitty locations anyways) but i've been looking at ads that are for places available in mid july. (theres this cute place available july 14th at gerrard and church for 700 a month-- it's a shoebox, but it has black and white tiles, grooooovy) I think i'm more interested in location then space though, considering I wont need much space, nor do i HAVE many things to bring anyways. Big windows aren't necessary yet considering that so far, nothing in my price range is above ground, and if it is, it's in the middle of nowhere. I figure that when I can eventually afford a place like that, i'll take advantage of it, but for now, why not just do some OUTDOOR photography. Whats the point of moving to TORONTO if i'll be photographing inside as soon as I get there?

Anyways, today I also went to guidance with my mom. He basically told her theres still a chance i'd get in, yadayadayada, and he also told me that I should at least do well so that I keep my doors open for whatever I do decide to do.

My mom then went on a rant that she will only tolerate university, blahblah, that im useless otherwise, and he basically said, "well, perhaps your blind to the fact your putting too much pressure on her. I personally think that you should just back off, literally, BACK OFF" (he said it all sternly and everything, it was fucking amazing, and I was really happy about that)

he also suggested that we should go to councilling because theres a lot of tension, and perhaps it will help with how we communicate, so now my mom wants me to come with her to see her psychologist. (im really not happy about that, i was never fond of the lady much)

and then he said i should go for a physical. I'm not sure what he was insinuating, because he suggested I had low iron (my mom said im always tired and up to no good or something), and I told him I donated blood not too long ago, and my blood was fine, and then he suggested it again, so perhaps he's insinuating i'm depressed? (and thats resonable considering i'm showing no 'motivation')(none that he knows of, anyways)


and the last thinggggg

I'm going for a school trip on MAY 20TH to college and ossington. We're going to CHIN radio station, then to a pizza place to experience "italian culture"

We'll get free time after lunch, which is hillarious because its pretty much a waste of a school day.


i'm also going out with my mom tonight because she needs an outfit for the birthday party at caesars for sunday, so i expect a lot of bullsht, or perhaps even a decent conversation.


AND

i miss you, and i cant wait for friday.



and i just saw a notification that you posted two blogs the other day, and thats what i was reffering to in my other entry. i'm confused too.