today was just a pissy day. i'm pissed at everything. fuck my cellphone, fuck my house, id like to fuck you, but i cant, so i'll fuck a duck, quack

there's a house nearby thats renting a bedroom or a basement or something. i'd actually consider living there until i graduate if my house gets too crazy. or if i get kicked out. i wonder what the price would be. it's probably just one of those 'soooomeday' things, like a dream, something to think about that wont happen, because i need to be saving money. but it's a nice thought. i walk by it everyday.

on the upside, ive been writing down a lot of ideas for photoshoots. more of them are on a candid level, where i would take a 'before' picture of the person as they are, then i would tell them something, in any form or whatever, and they would change their mood, and react. i would want it to be the same statement, and i would want different reactions. it's a cute little idea, no? but its not thought through yet, i dont know what id want to say to them. something with an odd sense of shock, no?

my philosophy teacher also gave me a brilliant idea while i was explaining my own idea to him. he thinks i should photograph garbage around woodbridge.--- nice homes, with garbage around them. what a lovely contrast eh? it's kind of like my 'beauty in the breakdown' idea, but hopefully i can find some better angles now. something to do, thats not very demanding.

in addition, i want to play around with some metaphysics in my pictures, specifically how people were thought to be buzzing molecules and atoms and whatnot, and the basis of all those are quarks- and what i'd like to do is have a white backround, and these 'molecule' QUARKY people doing everyday things. ie. sitting on a chair, whatever, but that would involve some serious photomanipulation, and im not a fan of photoshop, but it's actually quite a wonderful experimental idea that i should go for. time for me to get a tablet and photoshop? perhaps.

everytime i listen to manson, or read his biography or something, i get angry. and i get an urge to drink absinthe. and move to russia. some VODKE EH

im going to make another deviant art account for some of my stranger photography i haven't posted yet
and haven't created yet

i want to see some reactions