they can take my stereo, but you can't take me for a kid anymore

okay so
im getting everything ready.
hiding everything, syncing my ipod because god knows ill need it.
i'm not stressed, i feel amazing, and it will be loud and noisy and annoying
but i've never felt more liberated
or so strong-willed, if that makes sence
i feel like i can breathe freely like i did in the summer
this is the first step i've taken to controlling my own life.


ps. this band rocks. they're called gomme.
i've been listening to them for years.



and and
i had a badass dream.
there were a bunch of tornados, and missiles and guns being fired, because there was a war going on- whereever i happened to be. i went to hide out in a coffee shop, and it turned out to be a sexy, amazing halloween themed coffee shop, with a stage, and a bunch of elevated couches set up like a amphitheatre. the performance began, and i saw you wearing a manthong, and you were strutting around all wonderfully, and then you stopped,a nd i realized it wasn't you because tyou had a different face, but it was your body (yes i picture you naked in a manthong all the time) and then i just hung out there, and i felt great. kinda like how i feel now. great.

listening to gomme reminds me of that airy, organic, calming period i had in my life two years ago, when i was first in polonio's class, and i heard sonny moore say those things to me in a dream

and it was also around the same time i went to kensington market, and a man who owned a shop told me to trust my desires.

and i did.

look where i am, and where im going.

that energy is coming back to me, and i'm so glad and thankful that it is.