okay, so i miss new york
but i wouldn't go back without you

Day 4!

So, im really tired, i got up a little earlier then normal, and I have ALL my shit packed. Im ready to go home. Yesterday was lovely, we walked through central park, went to see strawberry feilds and the 'imagine' thingy (words escape me in the morning), we went to st.patricks cathedral which was mindblowingly stunning. we then went to soho, noho, greenwich, little italy, chinatown, and i went to greenwich (i've been dying to for years) and soho. I thought soho and greenwich reminded me a little bit of home, everybody was young, everybody was gorgeous (topless hollister models EVERYWHERE... danielle got to hug a holister model because she was wearing a free hugs shirt, damn her!)

soho was bloor, college and queen shoved into one, with a trillion street vendors, a lot of wonderful shopping, and just an overall delicious mood. greenwich reminded me of all the best coffee shops in toronto shoved into one street, and the stores reminded me of a value village, everytihng was vintage and they had gorgeous, and still expensive hidden jems.

i think i enjoyed the walk around madison square garden a little bit more then soho, it was a little too jammed and my skirt kept flying up monroe style cause there were subway vents on the floor. (totally cliche and funny)

we then went to a comedy club, which was okay, nothing special (we're so much funnier)
and then we TRIED to go to planet hollywood on times square but they evacuated the area cause of that stupid bomb, and then we heard them detonate it themselves, which was pretty cool.

we went to charlie browns across the street, and we were laughing about everything and anything.

im glad to be coming home, new york was definitely stunning, everything i expected it to be, and im glad i can come home and i really, really need a nice trip to toronto now.


i miss you all!
and im coming home!
im sleeping the whole way!

and i have to upload 2000+ pictures
woo!

Day 3!

So, yesterday was quite amazing. We went on a ferry around elis island, saw the statue of liberty, We went to ground zero and the church across from it, which was insanely emotional, we walked around the financial district (I went everywhere) we then got dropped off at times square and had about three and a half hours to wander (i went to find an american apparel)
i had north and south all mixed up somehow, i would walk south thinking its ACTUALLY north (the streets still made sence, but my sence of direction was totally off for some reason) and in that time, i went all the way up broadway to 23'rd street (i started off around 56th street) adnd then went four avenues east (yeah, east) and foudn my AA. i then walked back casually through madison square gardens, then some more small beautiful parks in the middle of the city, and it was absoloutely breathtaking, and the pictures i took are all crazy and full of people.
people in new york don't mind being photographed, and i'm so glad for that fact.
walking around the beautiful parks on my own, and taking my time really got me emotional- and listening to my ipod really made me open my eyes to the mood and everything, and like the cliche person i am, i listened to hey there delilah in times square and cried, because as soon as that song came out, i promised i would do that someday.
i remember just sitting around times square yesterday, and it finally hit me where i was, and it was profound. thats all i can really say about it.
after all that walking (and new yorkers are still, in my opinion, very very sweet), we went to watch mama mia at the winter garden, and that was a little corny at first, but they got me singing at the end of it, duh. i really liked the old people. milfs and dilfs hardcore.

i got everybody there gift! it's done! woo!

today im going to greenwich village, and soho, an area im DYING to checkout, i have a feeling i'll adore it.

i miss you and love you!

Day 2!

So yesterday was quite lovely, I walked around the MET, went to see Picasso, van gogh, Monet, and i fell in love with a lot of modern pieces as well. i could have spent days in the goddamn place, but they only gave us about an hour or so. it was kind of insanely bizarre and surreal when i was staring at a Picasso, it felt unreal just walking on madison avenue also. i don't think it really hit me yet!

after walking around madison avenue, we walked through central park (briefly) and we then went to the natural history museum for an hour, then the rockefeller center, (where we got about three hours to walk around fifth avenue, which i can only describe as a spaced out queen street, like literally, tons of space and tons of stores (not so much independant boutiques, i would say thats found more on madison avenue)

i just see toronto when im walking around new york. we were comparing new jersey as vaughan, cause its not very far, and wasaga beach is the equivelant to the jersey shore. (haaaaaaa)

I then went to the top of the rock, (rockefeller lookout point) which was breathtaking, i went on an NBC studio tour and got to see the SNL set, which was, interesting but meh, and then we went to times square for an hour or so and chilled, then went to watch STOMP which was fucking sexy.

either then insane honking, there's a lot of nice people in NY, it's not the typical bitchy buisness people walking around (i havent seen it yet) and so far everybody is nice. but they aren't CHARMING. they're missing substance, so to speak.

usually people would want to move to new york after going, (my friend is actually going to live here in a year or so for school) but toronto is still the only place i'd be happy with. (i guess i'll just have to visit eeverywhere, no?)

anyways, today im going to see ground zero, hit a cruise and look at ellis island, more central park, maybe some more madison avenue, and then mamma mia, im pretty sure.


i miss you all!
i bought some I <3 NY shirts for everyone too!

Day 1!

Okay, so I said i wouldn't blog until I come back, but how can I really deney blogging while in NEW YORK?

Last night was fun, I was in a room with marlise, megan, and i think her name is julia or something, and then dave and a bunch of funny ass gr.11s came to hang out in our room and order a pizza.

I slept good, megan rolled over onto me, which is funny considering i literally didnt move, she was delirious so it was dfunny


today were going to a bunch of museums, times sqare, rockefeller plaza, tons of crap actually, and im quite thrilled
i already took around 200 pictures, i have room for about 2000 more (thankfully)

i barely spent any money, aside from food, so i still have a lovely amount to spend on embarassing gifts for all of you.


anyways, i miss you all, a LOT (yes, you too siby) but i'm so glad to be out of woodbridge, and im thrilled to be here, and i plan to squeeze every moment i can out of this trip (waking up early was a great idea)

ill blog again tomorrow morning (or maybe even tonight)

ps. alex, the computer wont let me view your blog cause theres too many sware words in it XD
i thought you would find that funny!

i'm going to new york with people who believe in doing there homework on the bus. i think that clarifies everything about how my new york experience will be: rolling my eyes, and shaking my head



anyways, im going to miss everyone! ill write you emails, ill try to do my best to get online, ill bring you all back something,




and Rahim,

uh, I LOVE YOU

July 28th, 2009

a reminder,

now that i know your here, i can sleep at night
even though my body aches for your touch
your deeper in me then you'll ever know

i'll be the rhythm, you'll be the beat

Today, angd tomorrow marks something wonderful and beautiful. It marks my departure for new york, it marks another month closer to the summertime, and my growth. It's harder then ever for me to speak, to express through my blog, specifically because now there's less time for reflection and more time needed for actually getting things done. Slowly, but surely. I need to do what is important right now, and thats finding my voice through photography (It doesn't really matter that my blog will slow down, it's not very important.) Everything else will attend to itself, naturally. Matters of money, a space, and of a more.. severe nature will attend to itself without any effort- the will and the desire is there, and at this point it's just a matter of time.

It's felt like time has gone by so slowly, but I remember telling you about New York months ago, that I might go, that it would be lovely, and although it will be odd to be without your voice for a few days, i really just need to get out of my life in woodbridge, even if its for a few days. It hasn't been an easy journey to get here, and it still wont be until i'm in my place, rent is taken care of, i have a job, and i'm in your bed. Until then, I will continue to be hungry, sleep deprived and running towards what I want, and what it is that i want has been consistent for months, and if you really think of it, years.

i still remember the first time we spent time away from eachother and i went to wasaga beach, and you were attending to work. i don't even think we heard eachother's voices at that point, but i just remember missing you, missing you like fucking crazy, but i remember telling you that i've always felt you there with me, that somehow you were closer then i could ever imagine, and that somehow, something thats been hidden inside of me was awoken by you, an insane catalyst of a million different things
and i don't make sence, and i ramble as usual
but it's always been the same, how i feel about you is always been the same, and it's only intensified. there's something about your laughter, your nature and your presence that gets me running, that gets me moving, whether it's literally, or getting my mind moving, or getting me the fuck away from woodbridge, you've been the person thats been the reason that i'm transforming from the girl i was into the woman that i want to be.

i remember the way i felt when we told eachother that we found eachother, and it's been a baseline to my day, it's been there to everything i've been doing, the subtle sound of a reminder of what is to come, and it's coming.

i have a feeling it's going to be an incredibly emotional trip to new york, i know i'll be crying in times square, i know i'll be thinking of the summer and all the beauty i'll witness in toronto and anywhere i else i eventually decide to travel to.

i told my philosophy teacher what i'm planning for the summer, and he's the first teacher who encouraged me, who understood that i needed to get away in order to grow and decide what i wanted, and it was quite lovely to hear something like that around this time. he didn't pull a 'concerned teacher' mode, but he got it. and he told me to not tell my mom that he approves, he doesn't want to be hunted down. (sounds familiar)

i'm going to new york for a purpose, and thats to make a picture that expresses my mood and what i'm seeing down there. you don't take a picture you know, you make it. you compose it.


i'll save the blogging for when i return to woodbridge, i'll email and facebook whatever is going on.

im going to miss you babe, but i'll tell you all about that tonight

















Each day gets more and more like the last day
Still I can see it coming
While I'm standing in the river drowning
This could be my chance to break out
This could be my chance to say goodbye
At last it's finally over
Couldn't take this town much longer
Being half dead wasn't what I planned to be
Now I'm ready to be free

So here I am it's in my hands
And I'll savor every moment of this
So here I am alive at last
And I'll savor every moment of this

Won't you think I'm pretty
When I'm standing top the bright lit city
And I'll take your hand and pick you up
And keep you there so you can see it
As long as you're alive and care
I promise I will take you there
We'll drink and dance the night away

omnes te moriturum amant

i just watched ANOTHER house episode where a dudes girlfriend slept with his dad who was twice her age. bbbaha.
im going to miss you so much

so im going to bring my gameboy and play pokemon. i'll pretend i'm 12 again to get your mojo going.

my cousin lala just drove to montreal, stayed for 30 minutes and then came home. we're so alike, it's not even funny.

holy shit, apparently its going to go to 28 in new york on saturday or something
if it hits 30 degrees, your in trouble

now im not going to bring my laptop, but i will indeed bring my htc touch that has wifi (the phone that i used when i was grounded to get online)

apparently the hotel has a computer or so, and wifi, so i can at least email you at night

Intinerary

WEDNESDAY


Board Bus at 7:30AM
Stop at Crossings Outlet Mall in Pennsylvania

Get to the Fairfeild Inn by 9 (click here to view inn)
Sleep!




THURSDAY
Wake up at 7:45 for breaky

Go to the Metropolitan Museum at 9:30Am

Walk around 5th Avenue, Rockefeller Center, Trump Towers, St. Patricks Cathedral, ect from 11:30 to 1ish (and get lunch)

American Museum of Natural History and the Rose Center

NBC studtio tour at 3:30

Rockefeller Plaza at 5:15, dinner/wander in times square till 8

Brodway Show, "STOMP" at Orpheum Theatre
Sleep!





FRIDAY
Breaky at 8:45

"Cruise" down hudson river to ellis island, immigration centre, world financial centre, at 11AM, get lunch, ect

Battery Park and Clinton Castle, Ground Zero, Financial District, Trinity Church at 3:30

Eat at 6:30 at theatre district

Mamma Mia Broadway Show @ 8:00

Sleep!




SATURDAY

Breaky at 8:15

Central Park at 10am, explore till 11:45

go to St. Patricks cathedral for mass until 12

explore greenwich village, soho, chinatown, little italy, washington square park til 6:15

NYC comedy show at 6:15

Dinner at Planet Holywood



SUNDAY

GO HOME!




honestly, its going to fly by.
i dont think were doing much shopping at all, which is good!
i just want to find an american apparel at some point

i saw this old hairy man walk into the pool with just a speedo on.
i just planned out your next outfit eh?

i just found out at a meeting that new york will be a little more expensive then planned. dinner isn't included in the price, we have to go and get it on our own.

so, i just wont eat! bahah

as much as im going to enjoy this trip, its shitty timing. i wish i could have went when i wasn't trying to save money like a nazi. i'm still okay though, im on the right track, but spending money gets me nervous now.




ps. there was a 36 year old painting in my philosophy class, it was made in 1974. i started laughing because i just remembered your turning 37 this year. time is flying by eh?

I just fell in love with some photographers on DA

here's some of there stuff
usually i don't like most photographers on DA because they just want to please the crowd, but i really like these shots (from two different photographers)
(you can also see the similar themes)



absolutely stunning
i need my baby
my camera depresses me


i've also fell in love with a new technique/process (the photos above are photoshopped versions of it, but its still very authentic looking through editing)

A lith print is a photographic printing process that uses standard black-and-white, photographic paper with lithographic developer (often heavily diluted standard devoloper) to produce a print with dark shadows and soft, bright highlights. Tones, colors, and subtle hues different from standard black and white print can be achieved.

i'm decorating my place like this. mhm.